My life testimony

My life before I really met Christ was a confusing, lifeless, miserable one—for me. Even though I grew up in a Christian home, my parents teaching me God’s word, His commandments and the right values, those things still didn’t made the cut for me—of course—to have an amazing encounter with Jesus. I attended Kid’s church as far as I can remember in my young life, even though they teach us every Sunday that Jesus loves us, and that He died for all of us, I know that there’s still something that I’m looking for, I just didn’t know exactly what it was. So I grew up having these questions in me, “What am I really looking for? What is it exactly?” These questions left me to wonder and a bit confused. As I start to open my eyes to the world around me, as I let it lure me to its enticing ways, it brought me to a place where all of us have been. I closed myself to God’s ways and let the world love me, and I loved it in return. I knew that what I was doing back then, was wrong—being in love with the world and its ways. I thought that I would find the answer to my question by loving the world, but I was wrong, so wrong. At the back of my mind, or maybe my conscience, there’s this thing that keeps on pulling me back, keeps on pulling me out of the world. It’s like I’m in the darkest tunnel that you could ever think of, but at the end of it, there’s this light, a light that made me realize that I can’t forever stay in the dark, I have to get out, but I didn’t know how. I know I was so into the deep that it’s going to be hard for me to find my way out. Then the fear started to come like a huge wave that is about to crush me. It was the scariest and most terrifying point in my life, where I felt that there’s no one to help me, with no one to guide me back, with no hand to hold, and no one to turn to. I felt so alone. Suddenly, I felt the urgency to just hide and cry, and something happened.
Someone I’ve never really felt and encountered before took my hand, comforted me and just embraced me. I’ve never felt Him like that before; it was the first time that I felt His warm embrace, His arms around me, just caressing me. I’ve never felt so loved, and so safe. Right then I realized that this was the answer to my question. This moment, was the one that I’ve been looking for, my entire life. I finally had my own amazing encounter with Jesus; I was actually looking for Him personally. I felt Him, for the first time, very surreal in my heart. I can’t describe it in words what it is exactly that I felt, but for all of us, I’m sure you do know. For us it is the most fulfilling moments of our lives, where you’ve never felt so secure, and so assured of who you are, to just one very important and special person, and that is Jesus. I finally met Him. This is where we can actually say that we are in a point of no return. Where you would realize that you wouldn’t want to go back where you have been, but would want to continue your amazing and adventurous walk with Him. It is so awesome to think that I am just a worthless, very sinful human being, but still He chose to look for me, to save me from my miserable life—like a damsel in distress, and to just love me as I am, as me. I don’t have to fake anything for Him accept me, He already did. He made me realize that He is my wonderful redeemer and with that, He gave me a new heart, a new life.
They always say that “life is a choice.” Now that I know Christ, it is my time to make my choice. The choice whether to love Him back or not, to let Him live in my heart and reign over me, and definitely, I have a sure answer with that—it is a big YES. In Him will I only find my true purpose and destiny in my life. Now, I am choosing to close the world from me, and to just shut it. I am now and forever choosing to live for Him, to walk in His ways, to keep in step with His spirit, to desire His desires, to want what He wants, to choose His will and not mine, and to serve Him faithfully for the rest of my life. It is actually my privilege now to introduce Him to others like me before, who is so lost, in a need to be found and trying to find the real meaning of life. I know that whatever I do would not be enough to pay Him back for what He did for me. All I know is that He just wants me to love Him, love others, and be faithful to Him in everything that I do with this new life that He gave me. I am choosing to live my life to the fullest for Him alone. I believe that my life after I met Christ is the most amazing story that God has given me. But I also believe that it is still in writing and passing, He still does have lots of things yet to unfold in my life and with yours too. As we witness how God does amazing things in our lives, let us keep running the race that He has marked out for us. Let’s celebrate life! With that, my name is Kariza Grace Padrique, and this is my testimony. 

Crystal brown eyes

It was the first time that I looked at someone straight in the eye. At first I thought that it was going to be uncomfortable, but as I starred at it a little longer, I fell madly, deeply in love in his eyes. It was the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen in my entire life, and I would never forget that moment. The very moment that I looked deeply into his eyes, I felt so safe, so sure and never regretting anything at that time.

As I was starring into those beautiful eyes, I was surprised to see, that those eyes was starring back at mine. That was the first time I felt that the world has stopped spinning, time has paused just for us to cherish the moment.

As I was looking into those beautiful, gentle, soothing, honest and very sincere eyes, he smiled at me and it was like he was talking to me through his eyes and his smile. There were no lies in his eyes; it was very honest and true. Even in every angle as you look at it, every bit of it you can sense that nothing is lying with his eyes.

Looking deeply into those eyes was like seeing who he really is on the inside, it was like knowing his true soul, and not afraid to show me everything that is in him, he has nothing to hide. He was letting me see who he really is. He was very transparent, shinning and sparkling, just like a crystal, but just as precious as a diamond that is very hard to break.

I guess after all this, I believe in the saying that you can see a man’s inner soul once you look at him in the eye. Eyes never lie, and once you look at it very sincerely you will surely know what is in that person’s heart, mind and soul and it is very precious, elegant and very special.

The eyes are very honest and true and are never hiding anything. Just like a precious gem, like a crystal or a diamond you can see through it very clearly, and just like a diamond, it would last for a lifetime, no, I would say, even forever.


Author: anonymous

the point of no return

Since I was a kid, God has been introduced to me by my parents at a very young age. My parents had been in the church since they were in their campus days. So it simply means that I’ve been in a christian church since I was born, but of course I wasn’t born a Christian, because I still haven’t accept Jesus in my heart while I was still in the womb of my mom. Anyway, I’ve been in the church life since I can even remember. I attended kids’ church back at U-belt—I can still remember my teachers back then. I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior when I was 7yrs. Old; I remember it was an Asian Invasion. Well at some point I really do know what I decided that day, it’s what my parents have been telling me for a long time and I finally decided to do it. It’s really great how my parents never forced me when I was a kid to make that kind of decision, instead they wanted me to figure it out for myself. Since that day, I already gave my life to Christ, made Him as my Lord and Savior, and also decided to live to glorify His name.

When I reached the age of ten, I was in 5^th grade, finally I stayed at one school for 4yrs. I had lots of friends, in and out of school. That time I was the kind of kid that thinks mature for her/his age. My mind was opened with the whole world, so certainly I know what’s going on around me, even in the secular world that is. My parents at that time, was always busy at work and also with the ministry. So there was a season in where our routine as a family was, I wake up in the morning to go to school, both of them are still tired from work so it’s either my mom or my dad who would go out of bed to assist me in the morning then I would go to school and after I left for school, they would go to work. When I go home from school no one was home except for me who would be going in, I would do my homework and review lessons then I would hang out with my friends. When night comes I’m still out of the house even though I’m not allowed to be out after sun down, but sad to say I was breaking the rules. There are a lot of times that I would eat dinner by myself, well because I don’t have any brothers and sisters and we certainly don’t have a maid at home, I never really liked having maids it’s because I like my mom to assist me with everything. Sometimes I eat dinner at my best friend’s house, fortunately her house is just about 30 steps from our house so it’s very comforting. So after my parents arrive from work I would hang out with them for ten minutes then go upstairs and get ready for bed and school for the next day.

It was a pretty lame routine I guess, but that was my life, during my adolescence and puberty stage. I am not blaming my parents here, I understand why that happens and why they do that, and that is because they have to work hard for us to survive another day and for me to go to school everyday. But during those times that my parents weren’t around, I was living the double life, and I feel ashamed of it. Double life, because during weekdays I am at my own self and doing my own thing at my own terms, and during weekends I was this kind of girl who goes to church, tries to have a halo on her head, tries to keep nice (and civilized), the kid who is really active at kids church and memorizes every memory verses and the whole lesson every week, so simply the double life.

I’m kind of like getting used to it, and it wasn’t that hard to live a double life, I mean you’re like in those movies in where you hide your true identity for you to live this other life. And believe me I stayed in that double life for almost 4yrs. I mean I cannot imagine how I endured it for that long. I was so ashamed for all the things that I did, especially my dad was a pastor during those times, and there was a lot of pressure along the way because of that. I mean I cannot put my father in jeopardy because of the silly things that I did. I was so ashamed.

It was my choice to live that kind of life. Sadly on that kind of life, it was the life in where I was running away, running away and not even knowing that I was, running away and don’t even know myself anymore. I don’t even know who or what I’ve become. Most certainly I was running away from God and His destiny upon my life. I wasn’t afraid, but I was beautifully distracted to the things that kept me from going back to God. It was a dark life, but the way that I look at it before was, there was someone who is shedding me some light, at some point I cannot see anymore where I’m going but still there was this light that kept me going, the light that lead me back to God. It was only a matter of 4yrs measure time before I realized that, that light was God wanting to lead me back. So when did I realized that I’ve gone too far enough?

I can still remember that day; I was in 2^nd year high school. I went to a party with my friends at school. The party was at the house of one of our classmates. I was the last to arrive at the place, so I really have no idea what was going on. As I went up to the room where the real party was, two of my guy classmates went out and decided to go home, but before they went on their way, they tried to stop me from going into the room and I didn’t understand why, so I just ignored them and told them to go on their ways and I’ll go inside the room. I can still remember what they said to me, “tisay wag ka na tumuloy baka kung ano lang mangyare sayo, di kame nagbibiro”. I never believed them because they’re the kind of guys who treats everything as a joke during class time so I never believed them. Plus they call me not by my name but by their a.k.a on me and that is “tisay”. I still went despite of the warning that they gave me.

Once I got in the room, I saw that nothing was wrong except for the people who are inside that room. Then something happened, a game was played by eight people and that includes me, there were 4 girls and 4 boys. Suddenly, they uttered the words “let the games begin!!” It was actually a much known game by everyone and it’s not that complicated when it comes to the rules of the game, it was a “spin the bottle”. They made me participate the game without explaining the complications behind it, it wasn’t a simple game played by everyone, but it was the game that none of us should even play. I mean I know that a lot of people knows and plays that game, but not with the rules that was in our own game that night. They made their own rules by it, and the rules and the game itself is not meant for students like me or us! So I just went with the flow and played the whole game with them, every bit of it I played.

At some point I was so scared for what happened back there, but it made me wake up and realize that I’ve gone too far enough. I was so scared, it’s because one little thing leads to another then another then another, it’s like in the preaching of “chain reaction”, sunod-sunod na ang magiging results, you can’t stop it anymore because everything is already falling, falling in the wrong place. Right at that moment I became so afraid of what would take place after everything that had happened.

That night was actually a Friday so after I got out from the party, I went for a walk, as I was walking my tears are starting to well up from my eyes, everything at my sight that time was a blur. I cried myself out as I was walking down the street, and I know that a lot of people are looking at me. But I can’t help it; I was so scared for what happened. Then I remembered that it was a Friday and there was a youth service that night, so immediately I ran and went to the center. My friend saw me as I walked in, and my friend just noticed that my eyes are bloated, so my friend asked me what was wrong but still I wasn’t at a great consciousness at that time, so I didn’t respond. Every one of my friends that night was asking me what was wrong, but I never had the nerves to tell them what actually happened.

Then the preaching that time was like a sword that pierced through me, it was about running away, running away from God and from the things that God wants for you, and of course those things are just the best. I cannot remember exactly what the main point was, but I knew that God was finally talking to me that very night. It was a big breakthrough for me that night, and those were the moments in where everything just flashed back at me. Then God showed me this other picture, it was a picture of me living my life to the fullest, living for God, living to serve Him. It was a picture in where it feels like you’re living the life that God wants for you, and it was a very beautiful picture.

Right then I realized that God is speaking to me. He wants me to fulfill that life, that very beautiful and feel perfect life with Him, but in order for me to do that, I must first come back to Him and never let go. When you think of it in words, it really sounds easy, but still at those times I was so ashamed, but God told me one more thing, and that is “He loves me and He wants me to be with Him, I’m important to Him, and once He forgave me for what I did it’s nothing to Him anymore.” It’s like He already forgot about it. I’m His daughter and His princess; He is my Father, my King, my very best friend, my Lord and my Savior. That night it’s like God broke the chains inside me.

The words that I uttered after that night was, I am in a place in where, I am in a POINT OF NO RETURN, because I would never want to go back to kind of life that I have before, the kind of life without Jesus. Now I have chosen the life that is with God, I have chosen to be with God for the rest of my life, and I would never trade it for anything. It’s like God saved my life twice, and for that, it only proves one thing. That no matter who you are, no matter what you are and no matter where you’re from, you are important to God. He would do anything just for you to turn around and look at Him and CHOOSE Him. For God, you choosing Him are already very fulfilling for His heart, and that is because He loves you so much, and all He wanted is to be with you. Can you imagine that? Someone who really wants you, who really wants to be with you and will always, be there for you. Once you came to know who God really is in your life, and once you came to know how He truly loves you then you would never want to go back, you would never want to return to where you were before, instead, you would be in a place in where, you are in a POINT OF NO RETURN, and that is because of Jesus.

the meaning of my name Kariza Grace

kariza

Versatile, intelligent and artistically talented. You love to enjoy yourself and tend to experience a happy domestic life and material success. You have a methodical and thorough mind and are able to organise large projects easily. Charming and likeable and with more than your share of sex appeal you tend to find yourself in the spotlight and much admired by others. Life is more fun with you around.

iza

Sensitive and emotional you are highly intuitive and have a wonderful imagination. The instinctive impressions which you receive about people and situations are usually accurate and mean that you can rarely be misled. You have healing and counselling abilities which can help to alleviate the suffering of others. Your loyalty, integrity and belief in life means that you are much admired and assured of many friends.

krizzy

Gentle, affectionate and tolerant you are nonetheless determined and ambitious with the ability to lead. Sympathetic and understanding you are a humanitarian who wishes to improve the lives of others less fortunate. You have a keen intellect, strong intuition and creative ideas which are always put to practical purpose. You are loved by others for your inspiring optimism and for being a genuine friend.

Kariza Grace

Your energy, enthusiasm and willingness to seek out new challenges makes you an inspirational leader. You adhere to the principles of honesty and integrity and support order and justice. With a perceptive and probing mind you love to delve below the surface of things in your quest for knowledge. Your natural talents and productive nature may draw you to the fields of writing or research.

Grace

Graceful "Latin"

Life is never dull with your adventurous and restless spirit. You are always on the move and seeking a new challenge to pit your wits against. Being in touch with nature you love the outdoors. You have keen intuition and a desire for knowledge and you can be something of a crusader. When you apply discipline and tenacity to your energetic mind then leadership positions are easily available to you.

what does my name say?

You Are Smart and Curious

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.


You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.


You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.


You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.


You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.

But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.


You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.


You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.


You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

*infernes, a lot that was mentioned here was TRUE....

60 things a girl wants but wont ask for

60 things a girl wants but wont ask for

1. Touch her waist.

2. Actually talk to her.

3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts

5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.

7. Hold her.

8. Laugh with her.

9. Invite her somewhere.

10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.

12. Take pictures with her.

13. Pull her onto your lap.

14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.

15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.

17. Kiss her unexpectedly.

18. Hug her from behind around the waist.

19. Tell her she's beautiful.

20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.

22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.

23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her

24. Make her feel loved.

25. kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26-DON'T lie to her

27-DON'T cheat on her!

28-take her ANYWHERE she wants

29-text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.

30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.

32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.

33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).

34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.

35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people make fun of her, stand up for her.

37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.

38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle

39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.

40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS

42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears

43. Take her for LONG walks at night.

44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.

45.sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

46. Rub her back

47. Give her your hoodie if she's cold

48. Write letters on her back with your finger

49. Let her sit on your lap

50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.

51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.

52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL

53.""" Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.""""

54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.

55. Surprisingly sneak up on her and hug her from behind

56. Kiss her in the rain.

57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.

58. Slow dance with no music

59. Don't ignore her or be nervous around her--everythings going to be okay

60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go.

Changes

Changes can never happen overnight. It undergoes a process; it is actually a process, sometimes long and sometimes just in a pretty short time. There are changes that results in good or bad. Some change not noticing that they have already changed, some change because they have done it on purpose. But whatever changes that may be, it’s still change and nothings going to change that fact.

I always remember the saying that, “the only thing that is constant in the world is change”. That fact is already proven a long time before I was born, and even I can never change it. I looked up in the dictionary on what does the word constant means, and it says there, constant is continually recurring; persistent. A thing that is unchanging and invariable.” Even in the meaning of “constant” the word “change” was still mentioned there. Now I looked up for the meaning of change—I mean I don’t even know if you still need to know the meaning of it, but anyway for those who doesn’t know the meaning of it, here is your chance to know what it means. “Change is to be or cause to be different, the act, process or result of changing.” Even though the word “constant” was not there, there was this word that I mentioned at the first part, that change is a process. It doesn’t happen in one snap of a finger or in one blink of an eye. It is a process. It is a process that all people have experienced, and right now a lot is still experiencing it.

Changes are always present in my life, and even with a lot of people. Changes sometimes hurt, sometimes it feels good, and sometimes you just can’t feel anything about it. But one thing is for sure in the change that happens to me, it really feels good after the process, because I know that when I change, I change for the better good.

There are some changes that are really hard to resist, and there are some that it just happens. But there are times that you don’t even know that you can change it, that you will just be surprised that you have changed without putting an effort to it, you have already changed. You will even feel proud of yourself when that happens.

There are changes that are complicated. Complicated because there are some things that needs to be sacrificed for you to be fully changed, and sometimes that sacrifice will really hurt. But even if it does really hurt, you will have no choice but to do it because you have to, you need to change.

There’s this one time in where I just asked myself, is change really necessary? why can’t something just stay the way that it is? I mean if that thing is already good why does it have to change? One short answer came up to me. Everything that happens has it’s own purpose, God never allows something if it won’t help us, and that it only proves that God is in control of everything. God holds everything in the palm of His hand. Even He allows changes to happen in the whole world not only to us—but of course that change in the world would still affect us no matter what.

Changes are always for the better good, I have already proved it. God allows changes to happen to us so that we can be better persons. Recently God changed a lot of things in my life and it feels really good that I have changed. It really proves that God always wants what is best for all of us. Changes in life are really exciting, because you can never know what result would take place in the change that you are in.

We should always be thankful if we are undergoing changes in life, it may be a hard one, but still we should be thankful about it because we can be assured that after it, we would become much better persons that we are before. The mere fact that change is present in our lives is a great proof that we do have a life, a life that is great, beautiful, and very exciting.